There are people we meet who are not there to stay, but whose purpose is to make us realize something about ourselves or the current pattern of our lives. I met such a person weeks ago; he did not seem significant then. He did not become a friend, but he did weave a thread. We went out once and had a good time chatting about a certain novel and climbing... I experienced emotions I had tucked away after my last failed relationship and I caught myself. This man is not the one. That was evident when I told him a white lie during our getting-to-know-each-other stage. I was trying to be someone I'm not. Not a good sign. As I realized days later, he isn't the one for multiple other reasons. BUT here is the silver lining. The wonderful realization that dawned on me IS THAT I HAVE MOVED ON. I have moved on from my two-year roller coaster of a relationship with someone I still love dearly but who is also not the right man for me. What a freeing feeling! I felt it even on the day I stumbled onto a picture of my ex-boyfriend with his new girl. I had this grin on my face when I saw it because I felt only happiness for him. For us, because we had chosen to let go and find true love elsewhere. Anyway, I suppose I would've found out sooner or later about my moving on, even without the other guy's help. But he was thrown into the pattern of my life and though he did not cause a great shift himself, the short-lived thing (an inch of a thread?) with him allowed me to see that at least the pattern is being woven. There are imperfect parts in it but as a whole, when it is put together, it remains beautiful. :)
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